around not.

pretty uptight these past few days. apparently its the way i view people. i find that to be their critic is easier than being their friend. i really need to change this mindset. always trying to be a better person altogether doesn't come any easier than what you can't understand.

maybe i got to take a backseat and ride around a 'lil. its always theraupatic to unwind and unlax awhile but, complacency drives to me quicker than anything else. if i need a break from doing too much of the same thing, i'd like a break from life.

just know that what makes us all appreciate life around us better is not the things in life, but the things we get out of life.

i got God.

Him and me.

everything's going on pretty fine. i hope it continues. the transition of a bad week to a good one is always pleasant and welcoming. thank God.

explicably, the due reason that anyone complains about having a bad week is subjected to the events and mishappenings that occurs over the span of his day. talk about bad timing. nothing falls in his favor and suddenly, it seems like he owns the world everything. he better be glad that he has a God whose might and power permits him grace which carries him through everyday. or he might have died a few hundred times over already.

he is me.
God i thank You for everything.
amen.

show offs.

people told me the novelty for me of writing in blogs has worn out and worn off. i accredit it to just plain laziness and poor motivation that's all. i wonder how come people out there have so much to write about their day that they just wanna propagate to the whole world that their day is such a big stinking deal.

i'll continue to write up but, the dedication to consistency inside here isn't very much in me anymore. i guess if only there is something noteworthy that's worth a heck of a mention, then i will blog it down here. other than that, i'll tell those people that they need a life. rather than blogging incessantly ranting their heads off in a virtual space of words, they're better telling it off to someone.

show offs.

anything but.

you're anything but a redundant chore.
you're anything but something i'll shelve up.
you're anything but a tiresome nag.
you're anything but a nasty put-down.
you're anything but a used reason.
you're anything but anything that tires me.

that's someone else.

argh.

kept losing money for no apparent reason. either i've misplaced it, or i'm in a state where i think they couldn't be anyone else i know that could be more of a blunder than me.

recently i'm behaving in a really irrational manner. making a nasty input from your mind audible can be pretty nasty. when anger clouds your logic, the first thing you'll be doing isn't to think, but to react spontaneously.

in an impulsive show of action.

it'll be better if we can think before we act. save the blushes, work out a better methodical solution.

save me for the folks.

thoughts.

a clear mind speaks no confusion.
a pure heart hides no sins.
a silent thought tells no one,
a hidden talent does no good.

a quiet retreat saves one's life,
it heals and restores him, by the maker of his soul.
a solitary place may bring him comfort,
admist the harrowing ways.
of the city,
of the world.

a heavenly comfort i see divine,
revels in peace,
my all,
He is inside.

nondescript.

nothing much to write about today. other than the chinese new year approaches for my family and me, it has been one whole period of spring-cleaning around the flat. yes i do help, have to admit that although my effort isn't significant enough to rant about, the least i only said that i did help.

not boast about it.

i'm pretty nonchalant about the celebrations though. to many others, it meant a time of celebrating a new year in the chinese lunar calendar. i just see it as a reason to whittle my time away from work and get on away for awhile. please excuse my blatant attitude. it's not that it doesn't appeal to me. it's just a repeated tradition for me.

i'll try to be ecstatic about it.
hooray.
look at me. i am happy.
haha.

another month already.

february already.
this year seems to ease by pretty fast. in a somewhat haphazard fashion. one thing's for sure. problems never cease themselves. which makes part of daily living such a chore sometimes when you have to deal with them visually. it kinda comes as a rude awakening, when you least expected it, that's when it slaps you into oblivion so hard, you need eons to recover.

i don't face reality head on. that justifies why i can't live up and smell the roses as something sweet. they're actually pungent to me. you can't smile and say it's ok when you have a bludgeoned heart that is on the verge of bursting up.

i pray that i'll get out of this slump. literally it chokes me like a poisonous intoxicant. hated the feeling right down to my gut. i'm gonna be alright. not gonna get me so long as He's for me.

reality really bites. lets grit our teeth and get it on with life.