with my hands lifted high.

can't figure out why did i named my title as that. i can't seem to control anything that revolves around my life. the circumspect of things isn't always fair, and the more i try to grasp and expand the areas of concern, the more i seem to lose ground over there.

i really can't be bothered anymore.

God, be my answer.
not the alternative no more.
so much for people.