new year.

traditions don't change.
that's why there's always reason for joy where we celebrate reunion.
gatherings that are meaningful.
where people reminiscence.
admist the red packets, gourmet food, festive spirit and good cheer,
something remains.

the sincere reception.
happy chinese new year folks.

heh.

i was in a lift with a cute 'lil kindergarden girl and her maid. they stayed a floor above me.
as i exited from my floor, this is their conversation.

girl : "walk out?"
maid : "no."
girl : "climb stairs?"
maid : "no."
girl : "exercise?"
maid : "no."
girl : "pleaseee?"
maid : "NO!"
girl : (in a hurried manner) "okay okay okay okay."

you should have been here.
amazing how God makes His little bundles of innocent joy.

all day.

i stretched out my hands and danced.
electrifying.
the passion created by the very momentum of my being.
so still,
myself.
i am ambiguous.
i know much more.

but lacking volume,
i contradict.

question.

everything thats unfamiliar seems threatening.
but if we are able to comprehend that changes are necessary for a better something,
we'll find that the risk of moving along is more feasible than the deadlock of being behind.
i thank everyone that decides to embark this with me.

now,
what will you do?

true strength is shown when we are faced with an uncertain tomorrow.
and living through it.

hee-haw.

letting people overwrite you is another that they ride upon what seemingly is your strength, they exploit it for their own good and see it as your weakness to gain advantages for themselves from you.

being good-natured is one thing.
being a donkey is another.

Being up on what you have to.

so everyone pulls out of infancy, unto being an inquisitive toddler to becoming a foolhardy school kid who feels every ready to conquer and proclaim the world his playground.

they develop social tendencies which makes them ignorant to follow what's morally acceptable and right. Mind games were prevalent even when they reach adolescence, and so condone everything which is plausible and right into an exhibition of skepticism.

so they always deem themselves politically right at every childish frame of mind which rectifies their reason to move and make stupid mistakes which seems ever so right in their own lingo.

grow up and get a life.
we're pathetic beings.
so there God is.

all that You do.

i'm not ashamed of the gospel.
i'm not ashamed of Him.
i'm not ashamed of Him in me.
that He died.
that i lived.

Jim Elliot: "He is no fool who gives up what he cannot keep [this temporal life] to gain what he cannot lose [eternal life with Jesus Christ]."

with my hands lifted high.

can't figure out why did i named my title as that. i can't seem to control anything that revolves around my life. the circumspect of things isn't always fair, and the more i try to grasp and expand the areas of concern, the more i seem to lose ground over there.

i really can't be bothered anymore.

God, be my answer.
not the alternative no more.
so much for people.

new day.

its a new year.
i'm not making up for what i've missed out in the past months by posting incessant entries anymore but to begin everything where i've last stopped.
may 2006 be something better.

hello world.
the old me has expired.